EXIT PLAN: I know I have a few things that can help with said exit:
My personality does not allow me to focus on one thing (it's obvious I should be on medication) and if you are like me and can multi-task like a mother f'r than I say don't focus (why limit yourself?). I get easily bored and distracted so I need to do more than one thing at a time, but note all of my projects can work together. I figure the Bright Side Project satisfies my inner publicist and editor, the blahg allows me to connect with like minds (hello baby animal lovers) and Besotted Brand justifies my design obsession. These are what I will be working on to assist with my escape from what seems like an impossible situation. I want you to know one thing if you take 'impossible' apart it reads- I'm possible. Just sayin'.
This weekend I worked on putting together thank you packages for former Bright Side Project contributors. This is something I said I wanted to do in the past and it never happened. It sucks when you are both a perfectionist and world class procrastinator. My goal with this project was to complete something I said I would. I had letterpress printed the cards weeks ago, ordered the lemonhead candy, boxes, and tissue paper. Armed with a goal and a design I went to work. By Sunday I had a boat load of packages complete and ready to send. I figure this is not only good manners but good practice for the future press kit send outs. Bonus, I felt like I really accomplished something.
By the time you read this, I will be at work and in a meeting with my boss and that can never be good, no matter how much positive energy I put into the thought. I am NOT in a position to just fly my birds and walk out. I have people that I am responsible for financially. I want you to know that if you are in the same situation, don't let people make you feel worse by your refusal to leave (I know you want to go). I am not a door mat and gosh only knows not the most pragmatic person in the world but I don't want to get another j-o-b. The next move I want to make is working for myself again, doing what I want to do, something that makes me not want to go to sleep at night because I can't wait to start the next day and get back to work. I had that once before and I shall again. Now go get 'em tiger, I believe in you!